Dream : She's Getting Married

Although she has been married for years and having a son now but don't know why the dream's time is when she is just about to get married. She is my first girlfriend, codenamed Little Cloud :P

We were at her fiancee's house, having dinner, just day before their wedding. Many friends were there, having fun, playing cards, watching weddign album etc. Weird thing was those friends I mentioned include my University's friends and I brought my N too :)

Seem like nobody else having dinner except Little Cloud and her Hubby, My N and I. The table was square in shape, very very small, it's about 1.5m x 1.5m and on top of tables are those expensive plates, glasses, silverware and, 4 dishes. During the dinner, My N wanted to go to washroom, so left 3 of us. I couldn't eat well, and I was afraid of those plates and glasses would fall to the floor, so I keep moving those to the inner side. I even move her glass of wine too. That's why when both of them finished their meal, mine still left a lot...and he asked, huh? why eat so slow? anything?

Actually that time my feeling was like a mixing jug, I truly felt happy for her but deep inside my heart I felt sour, not happy. But I tried so hard to get rid of that sour and unhappy feeling that acted cool. Why I would feel unhappy? I know it was because inside the dream, Little Cloud and I were just broke up, well, can't say break up but it was in cold war, so when she suddenly announced that she is getting married, my heart sure feel sour :|.

During my N was still in the washroom (Wondered why she took so long), her hubby keep talking about how important she is to him, he said she worked for him and he couldn't resist to give her all he can. He joked that during a roadshow he in charged, he asked the 20 people who used for the models, to help Little Cloud do her makeup wor... He knew that we were couples so he talked a lot how he met her, how important she is to him, that he couldn't afford to lose her etc... He done all the talking, Little Cloud keep silent, and me too, tried to concerntrate on the food and the plates.

When he went to take another glass of water, Little Cloud said unhappily to me, "Why so sensitive? (In Mandarin)", and I asked, "Huh, feel allergic? Was that the seafood?". She didn't reply me but just stare at her hubby, then I understand what she mean but just keep quiet.

After the dinner, My N came back and we wanted to leave, I tried to find my jacket, inside my jacket got a necklace that Little Cloud gave me when we were couple. But I could find the Jacket where I left behind. I just wanted to leave so I gave up finding it and left....
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Well, I can't truly describe the feeling in sentence... I truly deep in my hurt really happy for her, just feel sour.

Dream : Angelina

Keekeekekee.... I guess the angel really came to my dream lastnight :P It's very clear..
Have I told you that I met a very beautiful and sexy girl during the trip to KunMing? But I just didn't approach her to get to know her (Because my honey was with me too :P).

The dream start in a shop, a quite empty shop with a bit groomy. There were some people gathering there, we seem like we were here to pick up something after the trip, yeah there were all my group member while I was in KunMing. I saw that pretty and sexy girl. Again, she was wearing small size white T-Shirt with black silky pants that made her body shape look like perfect :P, but her hair has changed style, become shorter till the shoulder and highlighted.

Although this time my honey didn't with me, I still didn't take any chance to approach her kekee, guess I didn't wanna be unfaithful to my honey :P. Then, I guess it was lunch time, and people started leaving the shop, I saw an empty long resting chair (Neh...those make of colourful stip of rubbles, the back is adjustable one le~) and I decided just to rest at there and wait for them to finish lunch..... since I didn't like having lunch with strangers with no topic chatting during lunch...

I eyes sent that girl off. She was driving a very very old type Honda Civic, Hatchback, Ocean Blue in color.... The street was very busy with all cars waiting for the traffic light to turn into red.....

But dunno why I was inside this shop's owner's car and went for lunch together... On the way to lunch, I saw that pretty sexy girl, and we passed by her... she was driving alone tho~ after that we stop at a small alley and the shop owner made a call to his friend and say he is waiting there. I didn't know who he was waiting for.... suddenly, that pretty sexy lady show up kekekee, I was very happy to know that she was going to have lunch with us together ho ho ho..

Suddenly I was in a room. I was in her room. It's a big L-Shape room, at least got 10m x 10m, but the ceiling was very very high, I think at least 8m in height. The whole room was very very clean and simple, the wall all covered with yellow-white lacy curtains, from ceiling to floor... Her bed was a simple Twin size bed with white color covering. Strange thing was right behind her bed, there was another small bed, I saw a picture of a 5 years old boy sticking on the wall. I knew it was her brother... This room is so simple and clean that make my heart feel so harmony :)

Before I decided to leave the room, I took a peep out of her window and wanted to know where her house is located. I saw a row of very very old shop, one of them is restaurant dunno selling what but lots of customer... seem like her house is big and high, all I could see was other house's roof and tiles. kekeee

When I was about to leave the room, she came in and smile sweetly to me, "Enjoy your stay~" oooooooooooooooh, I was speechless but only can smile to her :P. Finally, I asked, "..... I still didn't know your name......." She smiles and replied, "Angelina, I'm Angelina", and turn away walked downstair. I was stunt out there and just feel very happy :) -End-

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DVD Movies Crazy

Believe it or not.... I just bought 49 DVD movie titles from a friend of mine... Am I crazy? Well, too bad he just doesn't have "The Nightmare Before Christmas" ...

Hahaaa....... Guess you'll see me Idling in IRC now very often because I'll be watching the Movie with my honey lorrrrr :D

Dream : Renovation

I just feel unsecure...
Well, the dream goes like this:

I was at my house alone, but then from the 2nd floor's window, I saw some stangers start using a set of key and try to enter my house from the main entrance...

So I rushed downstair and wanted to stop them and querried them but it was too late, they had entered the house. I asked them what's the purpose of entering my house without permission and where they got that set of key. They said it's from my brother's order but I wasn't believe in them. So I called my brother and he said it was his gf's ideal to let them in for renovation his room, and that set of key is belong to his gf. So I was mad about my brother's gf coz she simply gave the keys to other and she thought this house belong to herself as she didn't even get permission from me to start the renovation. !#@$#@

I tried to stop them to start work but I failed. They treated me like I was an invisible man. They removed the whole ceilling, knock out the whole wall, remove the whole carpet etc, the whole room just a mess and very dusty. Suddenly they said they have done renovation it and they left in a blink of eyes. But the room is completely ruined. I was so mad that until I wake myself up :|

Hrmp~!~!~! @#$@%$@#$

Dream : Honey Leaving Me...

Not a pleasant dream...

We were on beach retreat vacation (Don't know where is it). We stayed at a resort hotel shape like a rectangle, and in the middle of the building are those tiny SPA pools...

The first day was happy... we went to search for the best beach in this area then enjoyed the view and sunlight....

Then... don't know what had happened, I beat up a guy at night, and this guy was my honey's friend. So she was mad at me, very mad at my action done to her friend... Haih.... Then she said she couldn't stand of me anymore and want to break up with me... I was so sad but I keep silent.

The next morning, I saw her packing, she only packed up her belongings and left mine hanging outsides... Well, seem like she was going to leave me for real... I was so sad... but still got hope to win her back....

Wait till the last moment, I pulled her to a quiet place and asked her if this is for real... she said yes. Then I asked her was this because of yesterday I punched that guy? She didn't answer me. Then I ask again, that if I didn't beat that guy up, was she going to leave me too? Haihz... she answered YES. That mean this break up has nothing to do with yesterday beating.... suddenly I knew I'm losing her ... and I burst into tears... THE END.

p/s: Never know I'll cry like that~! That's truly a heart breaking moment. Hope it won't happen in real world. God bless me. I'm gonna tell this dream to my honey and ask her why she done that :P

Decision Made

I couldn't find satisfaction in what I'm doing now..... What should I do?

When I was still a Civil Engineer, when the highway is completed, I feel satisfied for I've been achieved, whatI've been done to the public....

What should I do now?

I've made a choice last year to quit my profession and helping my father's small business. I'm giving myself 3 years and try to pick up whatever knowledge I'll learn in this business.....