分享 ﹕有爱情，就有孤单

没有伴侣的时候，即使是孤单，也可以很快乐。
这个时候，孤单是一种境界。
你可以一个人走遍世界，结识不同的朋友。
你也可以选择下班之后，立刻回到家里，享受自己的世界。

一个人的孤单，并不可怕。
最可怕的，是有了伴侣之后那份孤单。
伴侣糟糕。你却不能离开他，那是最孤单的。

你和他，曾经有过许多快乐的时光，你以为从此不再孤单。
只是，许多年后，你忽然发现，你宁愿孤单一个人。

假如只有你一个人，你用不着再向他交代你的行踪，
你毋须再迫自己和他一起成长或一起不成长，
你不必再听他唠叨，
你不用再迁就他，
你不用再向他说甜言蜜语。

当你为他做了这一切，你竟然感到无比的孤单。
然而，你有太多理由不能离开他。
你不忍心让他孤单，不如你自己孤单好了。

原来，
所有的责任、感情、承诺、道德、传统、忍耐，都是孤单的源头。
孤单不是与生俱来，而是由你爱上一个人的那一刻开始。

- 张小娴

The Eye !!!

That's my Panda Eye.... A result of 15+ years of insufficient sleep.

Dream : 18th Century Festival

Last night my connection having problems, so I went to sleep very early around 11:30 P.M… Due to that, I couldn’t sleep very well and had many dreams…. Below are some dreams that I made.
(I’m going to use all the present tense….easier to type kakakkakaaa)

It’s 18th century I guess, there are people wearing armors, horses, carts, dirt roads, and big castle… I am inside the castle. It’s a festival time, and my class is one of the performers for this festival. At first, my secondary classmate 育麟 is riding a very big white color war horse, he wears all white like the “White Horse Prince” kekekee (In Real he is barely 5’5”) … He is performing those riding tricks that we can see in Olympics. The crowds are very excited…

Then, it’s my turn, I have a horse too, white color either kekekee, but my horse is very small compare to him, my horse is about my height, and she has a funny looking eyes and she can smiles like human. I am performing comedy with this horse. At first I wanna ride it then this “smart” horse doesn’t allow me, she runs away when I tried to ride her, and she turn her head back and laugh at me, the crowd laugh too. OK lor, then I finally succeed riding on her back, and I point to a direction and tell the horse “Go There!!! Go!!!” The horse doesn’t move at all and turn her head back, kiss me in my lips kekkeeee, the crowds are laughing very loud again. She keep kissing me I keep “pui pui pui’ until she satisfy then she run to the direction I’m pointing. At first I thought I will be over weight for this weak horse but I guess I was wrong, she can run like a wind, faster than the previous war horse kekeke……..and we disappeared from the crowds.

Then suddenly I’m sitting in a very cartoon like’s 摩天輪, like the one we ride at Disneyland… I look at my left, I can see a big dirt field but with a red curtain behind it. Then, my secondary classmate suddenly appear with all types of instruments playing some Orchestral but the size of those instrumentals are at least triple the original. There are my good friends: 烏龜﹐蝙蝠俠﹐人猿﹐肥佬﹐象勁﹐育麟﹐建力 etc… the funny part is one of them carrying the big drum, when wanna put on the floor, it almost toppled due to it huge size, and I see people quickly helped him out. That time I am wondering, why I am not performing there? Is that I’m not good enough? While thinking this question, I take a look to my right hand side and I say many babies and kids dressed like an angel and cupid waving and smiling at me……

Suddenly scene changed. I was told that I wasn’t participate in that Orchestral is because I need to participate in a duel tournament which using real weapon. Huh?! I am shocked but no choice that I have to be in this tournament to represent my class. I take a look at the tournament table, and I was in second duel. Then scene change again… I’m standing in front of the battle field, I am wearing the light armor (Rome Type) and wielding a 1 ft short sword, and I know this sword although is very short, but it’s very shape that can slice through armor like cutting cake. This gives me more confident. The bell rings and the duel starts. I’m so nervous than I can’t move my legs, both of us stand there for quite a long time until he decided to rush toward me, when he is about 1m from me, I quickly bend down, and his sword missed my head, then I quickly point my sword upward and I cut his neck and wounded his throat. The battle wins in one move kekeee…. I won~!

After the first match, I rest for a while only then the announcement say my 2^nd battle is starting now. I take a look at the field, I see a man dressed as Chinese KungFu master performing some breath taking move. His every moves, you can see the wind blowing out from his sleeves, seem like very powerful. From the logo of his clothes, I know he is from 武當… When I am scratching my head how to win this battle, my friends mentioned above suddenly appear and we sit around a wooden long table… They are trying their best try to encourage me…. And I feel confident again since I still have the sharp short sword. Finally I’m standing the middle of the field again facing this KungFu Master…………………………………………………………………………….

Hazy Day !!!

The following photos taken today while I was driving.... Ya... it looks like I took the shot during evening, but in fact, it was during noon time, around 12:30 P.M....... Haihz~


Sun at Noon


Batu 9 Toll


GrandSaga HW - KL Direction


GrandSaga HW - Kajang Direction


Phoenix Plaza in Mist


Tmn Connaught Highway


Tmn Connaught


Tasik Selatan LRT Station


Tmn Sg Besi 1


Damn Lorry!!!

分享 ﹕第一次谈恋爱的男人

Recommended by lovely JaJa, I bought 2 of her books last Friday.... Here is something to share with you.


遇上一个第一次谈恋爱的男人，那是很可怕的事，尤其当你的恋爱经验比他丰富时.
他不会哄女孩子、不会迁就女孩子、不懂得怎样去爱女孩子，那还是小事。最要命的是他的好奇心和妒忌心。
他会锲而不舍的追问你：
“你以前的男朋友还有找你吗？”
“你是不是曾经很爱他？”
“你和他一起的时候是不是很快乐？”
“他对你好吗？有没有我对你这么好？”
“你有没有挂念他？”
“你们为什么分手？”
“他做什么职业的？一个月赚多少钱？”
“你有没有跟他一起去旅行？”
“他是怎样吻你的？”
“你和他有没有做那件事？”
你告诉他：
“以前的事我不想再提。”
他死缠烂打，说：
“你告诉我吧，我不会生气的。”
如果你真的相信他不会生气，而把你和旧情人之间的事告诉他，你就完蛋了。他会把你和旧情人怎样亲热的情景记在心上，然后认为你是一个随便的人。
未恋爱过的男人，是一个固执、小器又大惊小怪的男孩子，只会给你添麻烦。男人，还是应该多点给女人抛弃和折磨，才会成为好情人。

- 张小娴